Who am I?

I'm a 17 year old teenage loser. I live in a shitty small town in the boonies. I hate writing about my feelings and I have subpar writing skills. My grammar isn't even perfect. I don't have any talents, I don't play any sport, and I'm not really that smart.

I'm kinda short. I'm not good-looking nor downright ugly. But damn do I think I'm ugly. I have bad posture and I'm skinny as fuck like a twig. Fast metabolism is a fucking curse. Aside from crooked teeth, I also don't have clear skin. It's bumpy, textured, oily and shit.

I hate how pathetic it sounds but I'm not mentally healthy at all and I've been struggling with it for years now. I wanna fucking kill myself and sometimes, the people around me. I hate myself too.

I used to be quite good at writing down everything I feel in precise detail but ever since my personal writings have been discovered by my nosy, bitchy and annoying mom, I withdrew from writing about my feelings for fear of it being discovered and getting confronted about it again.

I wsh this could sound poetic and shit like those other people who use Neocities to write their diaries but I'm simply lacking in my writing skills.

I'm here because I need an outlet for my thoughts and feelings. And because I'm bored as shit and want to relearn some HTML and CSS.

I was also inspired to create a personal website by the guy who wrote Metamorphosis, because his life resembles mine and I have found his story highly relatable. I hope he is doing okay.

If someone's somehow reading this, you might think I'm a fucking edgelord. Maybe I am. But really, I don't give a fuck. You can go fuck yourself or stay and fucking read this ugly, word vomit shitstorm that is my website.